Desperation is the door that break through uses.
Run to Him who gives and makes all things, Him who is the ultimate and only SOURCE.
You do not have to be the best, the most righteous or anything even (just believe) as a matter of fact He will meet you at your point of need.
He will often use your desperation to push you through to your purpose as long as you don’t give up.
Keep on pushing through, Do not give up. Giving up is not an Option and Never should be.